It's Difficult, But It's Fine

Life is difficult, and there's really not much else to be said for it. 

Life is difficult, and sometimes you feel so lonely and unseen and ignored that you feel like a ghost. We all do — sometimes. Even if it's only for a couple of minutes, we all feel that way at some point in our lives. 

So how do we deal with that? How do we deal with overwhelming loneliness, feeling alienated from every human being, even the ones that are close to us?

I wouldn't know. I wouldn't. I have never dealt with that feeling very well. Starting from a young age, I couldn't deal with that feeling. Maybe it's because my loneliness came from a cocktail of ostracism and shyness, but I could never deal with it.

It just made me mean. I built up walls and became more frigid with each passing year, making myself bitter and hurt, even as a teenager. And by then, the only one responsible for my loneliness was myself because I blocked everybody out. At some point, it becomes our own responsibility. And that isn't some line about how happiness is a decision — I would never say that because I don't believe that. 

I'm just saying that life is difficult, and the only thing that can be said for it is: it's fine. I doubt severely that this is in any way helpful to most people, but it is important to me.

Life is difficult, but it's fine. 

It’s all going to be fine.

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